when was my last post. i cant rmber. is that good or bad?
i mean. actually, i did come online. just that i didnt blog.
not that i dont want to blog. not that i dont feel like blogging.
it's actually because i feel so guilty bloggin.
the thing is. i shldnt even be online isnt it.
ohmygod.

days are slipping by. and things are still left undone.

i think i'm that kind of person who needs to be pressurize.
i think i can perform better(not that i'm performing already) when i'm under stress.
quoting oh-once-my-fav-tcher, diamond is just coal under pressure and heat,
hah. does that mean i'm a piece of coal?

HI. i'm miss coal.
ohmygod.
and here i am. watching the minutes and seconds tick away.
freak.

oh. and another issue.
dont you think that there are just some people who suceed in everything they do and try, just so successful in life, while others can only remain as failures.
and that life's always unfair plus things usually turn out the way you dont want them to be.
are we suppose to accept this suo4 wei4 de3 reality?

If i still dont start studying, I shld kill myself.



perhaps if i didnt allow myself to sink into it in the first place, i wldnt be hurt time and again.

I practically sicked my first week of June "holidays" away...
Yeah... I put holidays in brackets as u all know, holidays doesnt really equals to holidays for us poor lil students...

HEHEH... so confusing leh... I really have no idea how to START studying. I know that it's high time that I should start mugging, but then again, there's 5 subs, which one to start first?!
Been failing practically all my tests now, this cant go on.. But how to make my marks go UP with so many things tying me down now? I know that's an excuse definitely, but I cant stop myself from using that excuse. Cos at the very least, it makes me feel somewhat better. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!

On a happier note, there's no more extra lessons for the whole of JUNE! whee! There's only tkd camp (OMG) and pw to be done...
haha... notice the OMG, heard that tkd camp is PT= Physical Training time!!! OMG. it's been donkey years since I last do jumping jacks, running and blah blah blah. The last time I ran was like few weeks before end of sch? THat's not exactly long la, but I got no stamina, very difficult to keep up my pace if I stop running for like one week.

OH! quoting xf, "youtube's such a great invention!" HAHAH. I totally agree man. Tho I cant find -sad love story- there... SOBS. but then watch a lil bit of devil beside me. Is it reeeaaallly that nice? so nice that everybody's watching it. Heh.. but i dont really like taiwan dramas, korean drama suits me better! hahaha.... I like to cry cry and cry. destress is it.. LOL

I'm getting tired of my current blogskin. But like not in the mood to change. WHat am I doing? god knows..

I'm yearning for good food, good rest, good playtime, good shopping.......