when was my last post. i cant rmber. is that good or bad?
i mean. actually, i did come online. just that i didnt blog.
not that i dont want to blog. not that i dont feel like blogging.
it's actually because i feel so guilty bloggin.
the thing is. i shldnt even be online isnt it.
ohmygod.

days are slipping by. and things are still left undone.

i think i'm that kind of person who needs to be pressurize.
i think i can perform better(not that i'm performing already) when i'm under stress.
quoting oh-once-my-fav-tcher, diamond is just coal under pressure and heat,
hah. does that mean i'm a piece of coal?

HI. i'm miss coal.
ohmygod.
and here i am. watching the minutes and seconds tick away.
freak.

oh. and another issue.
dont you think that there are just some people who suceed in everything they do and try, just so successful in life, while others can only remain as failures.
and that life's always unfair plus things usually turn out the way you dont want them to be.
are we suppose to accept this suo4 wei4 de3 reality?

If i still dont start studying, I shld kill myself.



perhaps if i didnt allow myself to sink into it in the first place, i wldnt be hurt time and again.