Disappointed.

Disappointed. This is the word. My history. I got a low low 29/50. Which is like not even a B?
Furthermore, when combined with my SS, it pulled my SS down.
So I am very very very very very very ultra disappointed for my combined humanities.
How? Now I'm like totally demoralised for History.
A-maths is... I know it's careless and I WILL get rid of it during O's. I'm not dealing with trying. IT IS A MUST.

moaning for combined humanities. Sorry.

Firstly, I am sad.
Secondly, I am still sad.
Thirdly, I am very sad.

Rather angry with myself for SS.
I am not blaming anybody here except me.
Rather disappointed too.
Just like A-Maths.
If only she didnt cancel the sacred 4 marks and changed to the hated 2 marks.
I would have gotten what I wanted.
Yes I know what's done cannot be undone.
ok. That's why I'm saying this:
It's nobody's fault but mine.

There's a bug bugging my com.
shit.
Hai.
Anyway. Thought of posting so here I am.
Suddenly this came across my mind:
O-Level= Ordinary Level
So why so many pple fear it?
It's not even the Advanced Level.
But like HEY! I fear it too.
So far I dun noe of anyone who doesnt fear it.
Those under 16 i mean.
Those above 16 said it was nothing compared to A's.
So now, how are WE going to cope with A's next time?
If i ever get the chance....
Quoted from xf's blog.
"I never knew stress like I knew it now."
Anyway, peeps.
A not-so-bad way fo coping with stress to to cry.
It seriously relieves stress. At least for me.
gtg.
Bye.
Take care peeps.

My blogspot has gone mad. Totally. you know the box where u're supposed to type your post? It became "diminished". OH! That's when your focal length is placed between 2F and F. Physics. I hope I got that right. Prelims are JUST over. OK. Back to the point. The box became like only 2 inches in height. Ah. Nevermind that.

Should I talk about prelims or today?

Hmm.
"Scissor paper STone!"

OK. I shall talk about prelims first.
O well.
English was. Risky.
HCL was din studied enough I guess.
Physics was. section C din understand last 2 topics. Irritated. Wasted.
Chem was din study enough. Angry with myself.
E Maths was. CARELESS.
A-Maths is the WORST of all. Like p1 and p2 i tink i got like near 20 mrks careless. It's not difficult, but I confirm I didnt do well. I couldnt do some easy sums in p1. Dumb me. p2 was totally irriated by careless mistakes. Well, I hate myself for that.
SS. Quite long le. abit forget? only rmember no time write L5
Hist was Okay~
Geog was Unexpected questions. All those din study came out. Shit. crap.
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OK! Now to today's programme.
Today went roller (blading/bladding?) with chinghee,yichen,xuefang,mingkee.
It was SO FUN! haha
I think it's been 6 yrs since i last went blading. ( so i decided to use 1 "d"). Whatever.
Hahaha. Yesterday i was getting out this dusty and old plastic bag.
INside which sat my long neglected blades.
And.... and... and...AND! It was angry with me.
When I was cleaning it. The strap (one part of the blade) Snap!
Like OMG!!!!!!!
hai. So I had to take my sis.
Guess what. I snapped too later when we were blading.
Haha.
So chinghee is a PRO! Wah...
she blade very nice.
Poor mingky.. Hope u din sustain any injuries!!!!
HAha. overall was fun la.
Very long nv go blading le.
Den after that mk, b, yc, and me went tm. It was quite er... wat u call that? Leng3 Chang3? Abit gan ga la. Haha. O. Thanks b for helping me with the blades. lol.
Wah! I think i sprained my arm of something. It hurts now as I'm typing.
dung.
Anyway.
Shall stop here.
Nice day~





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(Before anything, I promise myself that this will be the last entry before prelims ok? Sorry.)

SS MOCK EXAM.
I don't know what am I doing.
I have lots of things in my head.
But I just can't make myself pen them down.
Am I going mad or something?
Was it stress doing the work?
I NEED MOTIVATION SERIOUSLY.

Actually, I didnt want to post until either end of prelims or O's.
But apparently, I wasnt successful.
Firstly, the most dry subj.
Report Card.
I wouldnt say I didnt improve cos I did. A lil.
If I'm a optimist, I wld say O well, it's alright, at least I didnt deprove.(does this word exists?)
But, sad to say. I'm a pessimist.
Which means that I think that my results are still SHITTY.
yes. that is the word.
Someone BIG to me once said.
"Your class is in this shit and I'm in it with you all."
It is so true I wld say.
There are many times when I will just doubt myself.
Whether I can seriously qualify for my dream JC or whether I can even qualify for a JC.
What if I end up in a poly?
Will I spend my whole life regretting?
After reading 2 of my frens blog.
I conclude that my command of eng is seriously bad.
you can see my sentence structures isnt that strong.
my vocab isnt apt.
and o yah. My blog is totally not philosophical.
But I think that's not tt worse yah?
the worrying part is my vocab and sentence structures.
What's with the concord and all?
If I say till today, I still dont know what they mean by concord, will Ms Morni kill me?
alright. I'm dead now.
Back to the point of results.
I really dont want to disappoint my parents, teachers and tuition tcher.
He spent sooo much time on me. patient and all.
I seriously cant disappoint him in the upcoming prelims and O's.
BLESS ME THAT I WILL DO WELL.


It was such a heart-wrenching moment when she said that.
But I guess I'm in no position either.
Sadness overcomes me.

A emotional post.

" Four Unity is an extremely notorious class." Do you agree? Explain your answer. [12 mrks]

Given factor: Notorious class
Other factor: Lazy class
Other factor: Lovely KIDS

L4--- Four unity is an extremely notorious class. They are guilty of coming to class late and frequenting the toliet during lesson time. Lockers is the first place they report every morning. thus they were often late. From the above examples, I agree that four unity is a notorious class.

--- Four Unity is also a lazy class. The class often hands up work late, sometimes even incomplete. The class switches on the "sleeping mode" during classes and changes to the "hyper mode" during PE. Therefore, four unity is also a lazy class.

--- However, four unity consists of a bunch of lovable, caring, understanding kids. We love our teachers. We appreciate our teacher's hardwork, sometimes. We joke with Miss Woon to make her happy... etc etc. Thus, four unity is also a lovely class with wonderful kids.

L5--- Four unity being lovely has a bigger impact. If we are lovely, it means that we are actually kind-hearted inside. With a little more love and time, we will transform into nice and obedient kids. When we become like that, we will no longer be lazy and notorious. Instead, we would have changed for the better. Therefore, I conclude that four unity is a lovely class!



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Oh! Like WADEVA for the top part of this entry. It's crap.
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Today, we got scolded real hard by [My Idol].
She just simply stomped out of the classroom.
Threw the papers and banged the door
It was scary.
She was on the verge of crying.
I was so sad.
Hai.
Why must our class disappoint her time and time again?
I don't understand.
Why cant we appreaciate her more?
Imagine if we still had the ss tcher we had last yr.
-Alright, I think you got my point-
*shhhH*
I couldnt believe that hell load of stress she was under. It was really like too much for her?
This is reality. You hold a high post. That equates to a huge amount of stress too.
Personally, I think it takes a lot for a teacher to behave in such a manner.
The consequences could be either disastrous or positive.
positive because maybe we will wake up and work really hard, giving all for her subj.
I'm thinking.
Will the class really change?
After seeing and knowing how much she endured for us?
Are we seriously sorry?
No doubt we're guilty.
But, it is whether we will change that is important.
And that leaves the prelims to prove.

Sosad[MyIdol]cried.
CheerUp.
IneedtocheerUPtooIguess.

MUG!

heyS!

Today, mk and I (not according to ram's british way), did something siAo. We walked all the way from Simpang Bedok to erm.. the busstop before stadium @ tampines! But it all took only a mere 20 mins. Well.. I was expecting more you see...
During the walk, she asked me whether I was contented and happy with life now.
My answer was a straight NO.
Why?
I ask myself now.
Maybe it's studies..
I'm still not performing above or even on expectations.

However, when I came online just now, I was feeling quite happy.
Just a little jolt of happiness in me. [ do you say it this way? ]
All happy.
Until I read this blog.
My heart.... I wont say TOTALLY sank la. But it did sank quite a bit.
I know it's ridiculous to be sad over the thing.
But. Somehow, it just doesnt good reading that.
It was the same when I left school today.
What yn said was rather true..
But it was just not within my control..

Booster was totally great. and mind you, it was really GREAT!
It was really a full 1 hr of laughter.
WHY ARE THEY SO GREAT?
Oh! I know.
Coz they have made the right CHOICES in their life.
Oh wells.....
DuH!
PNFC reopens again....
Bye peeps!

[ I'm glad my Chinese O's has long been over and everything is FACT now. ]
well... if you get what i mean

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Will pple be surprise to see this? -->
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"PN Rock" Era is kinda back.
though it may not be as crazy as before...
it still exists.
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OKie... so. What's to update about my life?
Nth much.
I think I lead quite a borING life.
As in.
I dun exactly have many friends..
I am not the clever girl anywhere.
I dun know how to mingle with pple. ( which protrays me as anti-social to others )
I not the apple of any tcher's eye.

Come to think of it. Very sad hor..
I always believed that my primary school years were the happiest so far in my schooling life.
Not as in the friends there better.
But. Somehow.
I was the "top" of many things.
There. I was a prefect. That made me feel like I had some power somehow.
There. I was top in class. But EM2 only la.
There. Tchers like me. At least 1 or 2 k... ( and i really mean it)

But when secondary life sinks in. my heart kind of sinks with it.
I remembered sec 1 mid-yr I was ranked 35/40.
Like. What shitty results.
Imagine. From 1st to the 35th?
How would you feel?
Then. I pia.
and I pia^ed.
at the end of sec 2 end-of-yr, I improved to 12/40.
You all might think that wah. I must be very happy then. Got improvement.
Ya, I was indeed happy. As in. Who wont.
But somehow. the end-of-yr exams was also the turning point in my life at this stage.
When it failed to get me somewhere I wanted to be.
I totally lost faith and hope.
It was like.
Who cares about the freaking result?
And the interest to study somehow slipped away.
UNtil now.
I felt I should be motivated for Prelims and O-levels.
After attending the 3-day motivational camp.
I really really really hope I will. and WILL be motivated to study real hard.
Ok.
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Anyway, I'm feeling kind of bored here. So I shall discuss about teachers.
So far in my entire schooling life, there had been 3 tchers whom I really adored and is very grateful to.
First one is my primary 2 chinese teacher. Zhen lao shi. She's a very small-built teacher. It was she who showed me what chinese is about and used methods I have never known before to teach. Till now, I can still remember what she taught me. Serious.

Second one. My primary 6 tcher. Miss Teo or otherwise now known as Mrs Chan. She was married to the form tcher of the next class in tt yr I was graduating. Cool. Anyway, that's beside the point. Actually I dun really know what exactly made me like this tcher so much. She's actually quite a common tcher. Dunno. ( Ask yuping and audrey for comments. She was also their form tcher. ) Erm. maybe she's more fun-loving. Dunno. But till today, I still miss the days where class 6/6 would joke arnd with her. O wells.

The third tcher. Ok. Like who doesnt know who this is. Well. the BIG name--> PN.
This one. I also dunno what made me adore and respect her so much. Eh. She is also fun-loving as of Mrs Chan. (above) Perhaps she showed me the way for SS? Lol. Eh. But she's definitely a bu ke duo qiu tcher. I think she's very successful in life. Or rather. Work. Since I dun know her private life. But in terms of work. She's cool ok. Like. Promotion after only like 2 yrs in school. And I assume good pay too. Like mingle arnd well with most tchers. And at the same time so greatly loved by her students. Like what more can she ask more? ( OH! Maybe a man. lol )

If I really will become a teacher one day. I want to be one like her. But I will want to have a decent man by then.

Alright. So much of my thoughts and "rants"?
Guessed it's time to say byebye?
I'm drifting off to sleep.

PN rocks back. (not an easy task)