OH MAN! ANOTHER week has passed. Anw, have lots to blog about. But kinda lazy to phrase everything into sentences and paragraphs. So this entry will be in POINT FORM. Here goes:

1) I'm so tired now. must sleep soon.

2) I need to chiong Math and Physics tutorial+ understand the lecture notes over the wknd.

3) I need to save up for club fund. Hai...

4) I need to be more consistent in my work.

5) I musnt be so timid anymore.

6) I must show him what are my real capabilities.

7) This is random: She's smart, she knows everything.

8) There's CIP next wknd, I dont know how am I gonna survive it.

9) It's time to study for the Econs essay test.

10) I MUST MUST MUST build up my self-confidence.

11) I must look more approachable and not DAO!

12) I must set a goal for PROMOS!

13) I musnt continue munching food non-stop.

14) I MUST pay full attention during lectures. ESP Geog and Econs.

15) I should be contented with what I have.

16) This is random too. Wenhui's fbt shorts got 2 BIG holes! and she wore it to school. -__-

17) I must count down the weeks to PROMOS!

18) ....... still thinking

Hmmm, of all of the above, the more important ones is those about studies and be more approachable. Studies wise, I think my results for JCT is really bad in comparison with my friends. I cant afford to lag behind in JC, coz everything will just start piling up. NOOOO!!! Go LISHEAN!
As for the " be more approachable" part, I think it's quite a serious problem for me. I dont want qianhui and faith to say I look fierce again. And I hate it when my real emotions and my facial expression doesnt match. Means when I'm happy, pple will actually think that I'm mooding. AHHH!! Is there like a "How To Correctly Show your True Feelings Through Your Facial Expression" class? lol. SMile more! YES!

Anyway, on another note. I'm actually very interested in who reads my blog. So that I can control my complaints about him/her. WAHAHAHA... Lol. Well, that will never happen anyway.

Anyway, gotta go catch up my beauty sleep now.
Tml is CHIONG TUTORIALS AND TEST DAY! AND THEN TML IS REVISION DAY! KEEP GOING LISHEAN! =D

takecare peeps

-PROMOS- IN EIGHT WEEKS' TIME!

hmm.. that's just a reminder to remind myself to MUG! no more daydreaming in lectures lishean! Buck up! (is this called pep talk btw?)

Anw, actually came here to blog because I cant sleep. As in like, for the whole night, I couldnt sleep well, so might as well come online and do something, rather than wasting my time tossing and turning in bed. Later still got to go for some CIP thingy. I figured I would be quite tired after tml. probably getting only an hour of sleep. Ohmy.

Another issue, blogs are never private right. Hmm, that's why I never write things out straight and CLEAR. Ha, only pple close to me will understand I suppose. THAT's why my blog's always so boring. No surprises and secrets. Heh..

JIAYOU pple taking O's and Prelims A's and Promos.
-when there's a will, there's a way-

I saw something super nice and felt like putting it up here.
It's about takewondo one anyway...
Smint! Must watch! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fd3UQkgT55c

YEAH! I completed the 2.4 km run in 13.34mins!!!
Wah... fastest timing in my life so far.. lol
So happy.
Come on lishean, show the same determination in your studies!!!
PROMOS coming in i think 9 weeks. Stress.
Hai.. and I havent start revising.
cannot slack!!!!!!

HEE! ok. another thing is.. SO SORRY GANG! As in the secondary school clique. Cant join the steamboat at MK's house coz of super busy schedule. SOBZ. But i'll be staying over. Quite cool. YEAH! I LOVE STAYOVERS!

And..... I cant think of other things to blog liao. used to blog so often lo. Now like so lost touch with the blogging world. lol.
till the next time!

-omg

hmmm...

Actually, if I were to type this post yesterday, I'll be ranting like MAD. And I bet no one will read it till the end. LOL.
So all of you should feel blessed that I had Econs to do and thus didnt have time to come online to rant my frustrations.
I realise, JC life is really like, no life. YOu sleep, you wake-up, you travel to school, you go for lectures, you sit in tutorials, you go for lunch opposite sch.. and everyday just keeps repeating itself. SO SIAN. Evidence, yc's blog. Haha... she's complaining like me!
I realised I can be rather irriating and whiny nowadays. Opps.
But then, I really cant stand it when I put in effort for something, force my eyes to open lying on my bed, for fear that i'll fall asleep, and already have a aim in my mind and that something have to disappoint me. Worst still when it disappoints alot. This happens so very very often that I cant take it anymore. ARGH.
oops. sorry. I just ranted out tt irritating issue.

Hmmm. oh. and i want to talk about REGRET.
do you all often regret the things you do, speak?
I regret alot of things you know. and the feeling really..., su*ks.
i used the word, and u know how pissed i am right.
ARGH.
you may say there's no point regretting for something that has already happened. Yes i know. But I still cant fight the feeling can? i hate it when it happens so very frequently.
Does this comes to a point that I think too much? too sensitive? hai, as what mk always tells me. i'm trying to change already, and i hope i really can.

OH, I'm sorry this turned out to be a RANTING post still. paiseh. this's not for your reading pleasure.

it's the failure that happens time and again that took away my confidence.
and i didnt used to think that way, instead, i'll be very angry with myself if I think of myself that way in the past, but all the things may proved it right. afterall, i shldnt live in self denial right. but of coz, i will still work hard to prove that wrong la.

bye.

Woah!

So fast, another week's gone.
Got back result slip and it was da-dang, a piece of shit. PUI.
Gonna, no, gotta! do better for promos. Twice the effort i hope.

This sunday's grading and BBQ!
I'm looking forward to the food! HAH.
Oh anyway, there's so many pple arnd me who keeps complaining they're fat and wants to go on diet. This make me also feel like skipping either lunch or break know... But then, my weight hasnt go down. Hmmm... maybe it's the sweet sugary drinks that's contributing to my weight and fats! ARGH! But everytime after PE or taekwondo, I will thirst, then I'll buy canned drinks. Everytime I walk past SweetTalk, I'll feel like buying bubble tea since it's so much affordable now then before. And somemore, after lunch or dinner, I always want to drink can. ARGH!!!!
NO! I must cut down, bring my weight to where I was this Jan.

O. Did you know that banana contains lotsa calories?

Now's arnd 1230, so tired le, shall stop here then.

-Jiu Ci Ge Bi-

Finally posting my feelings again...

Woo.. cant believe that I'm actually blogging. So duper long never blog about my life liao... hee
There's so many things going on in my life now, and it feels rather good actually. I prefer to have lots of activities after sch rather than go home right after sch ends. I think that's because I like company.

Oh ya, and back to the topic, about being busy right. hmm ya.. Now I dont have time to come online during weekdays, except when I have to come dl notes or do PW. Such boring stuffs right. I agree. But then I think what's occupying most of my time is tkd, and coz I enjoy it, I dont really mind. For now lah. if it's like promo time, I will mind. LOL. come on, I am LiShean. the great. wahahhaa

Oh. And I forgot to blog about something very impt. JCT results. Well, it's pui, a piece of shit. And I actually got a U for physics. I got 36 and to get an S grade you need 37. damn.
But I'm quite happy for econs, considering the amount of time I spend on it. haha.
Then, am quite disappointed for geog and gp. am VERY disappointed for maths. Which I practised the most. Hmm... so I still believe that if you think that you're very good in something and you think that you can do it well, sorry, it will always turn out the opposite. This is life man. big sianness.
Whatever.

-tkd rocks

I saw this on royce's blog and thought it was interesting so here it is:

1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4, ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."

I HAVE LIVED THROUGH 60 OF THESE 158 THINGS
[1] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[2] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[3] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[4] I have played ping pong.
[] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[5] I have seen fireworks.
[] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[] I have almost drowned.
[6] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[7] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[8] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[9] I have been ice skating.
[10] I have been roller blading.
[11] I have fallen flat on my face.
[12] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[13] I have been in a fist fight.
[14] I have watched the Power Rangers.
[] I attend Church regularly.
[15] I have played truth or dare.
[16] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[17] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[18] I've called someone stupid.
[19] I've been in a verbal argument.
[20] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[21] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[] I've climbed a rock wall.
[] I've lost more than $20.
[] I've called myself an idiot.
[22] I've called someone else an idiot.
[23] I've cried myself to sleep.
[24] I've had (or have) pets.
[25] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[] I've mooned someone.
[] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[26] I've been on TV. Well, a photo of me
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[27] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[28 ] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[29] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[30] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. (for like dunno how many times)
[] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[31] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[32] I've written poetry.
[] I've been arrested.
[33] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[ ] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[ ] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[34] I've had/have siblings.
[] I've been to a rock concert.
[35] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[36] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[] I've been picked first in gym class.
[37 ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[38] I've cried in front of my friends.
[] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[] I've been to Japan.
[39] I've had a fight with someone on AIM. (MSN.)
[40] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[41] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[42] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[43] I've been forgiven.
[] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I've cried at a chick flick.
[ ] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[44] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[] I've been in a car accident.
[45] I've done drugs. (medicine=drugs, right?)
[46] I've been homesick.
[47] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone.
[] I've been horseback riding.
[48] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[49] I've spoken my mind in public.
[50] I've proved someone wrong.
[51] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[] I've fallen off a swing.
[ ] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[52 ] I've lost my backpack. ( but i found it back)
[] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[53] I've known someone who has died.
[54] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[] I've done modeling.
[] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[55] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[56] I've realized how good my life is.
[] I've counted my blessings.
[57] I've made fun of a classmate.
[58] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[] I've slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[] I've been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[59] I've lied to someone to their face.
[60] I've told a little white lie.
[] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[] I've been pushed into a pool.
[] I've been/am in lov


OMG. 60's less than half of 158. I shld get a life right.
hmm...

when was my last post. i cant rmber. is that good or bad?
i mean. actually, i did come online. just that i didnt blog.
not that i dont want to blog. not that i dont feel like blogging.
it's actually because i feel so guilty bloggin.
the thing is. i shldnt even be online isnt it.
ohmygod.

days are slipping by. and things are still left undone.

i think i'm that kind of person who needs to be pressurize.
i think i can perform better(not that i'm performing already) when i'm under stress.
quoting oh-once-my-fav-tcher, diamond is just coal under pressure and heat,
hah. does that mean i'm a piece of coal?

HI. i'm miss coal.
ohmygod.
and here i am. watching the minutes and seconds tick away.
freak.

oh. and another issue.
dont you think that there are just some people who suceed in everything they do and try, just so successful in life, while others can only remain as failures.
and that life's always unfair plus things usually turn out the way you dont want them to be.
are we suppose to accept this suo4 wei4 de3 reality?

If i still dont start studying, I shld kill myself.



perhaps if i didnt allow myself to sink into it in the first place, i wldnt be hurt time and again.

I practically sicked my first week of June "holidays" away...
Yeah... I put holidays in brackets as u all know, holidays doesnt really equals to holidays for us poor lil students...

HEHEH... so confusing leh... I really have no idea how to START studying. I know that it's high time that I should start mugging, but then again, there's 5 subs, which one to start first?!
Been failing practically all my tests now, this cant go on.. But how to make my marks go UP with so many things tying me down now? I know that's an excuse definitely, but I cant stop myself from using that excuse. Cos at the very least, it makes me feel somewhat better. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!

On a happier note, there's no more extra lessons for the whole of JUNE! whee! There's only tkd camp (OMG) and pw to be done...
haha... notice the OMG, heard that tkd camp is PT= Physical Training time!!! OMG. it's been donkey years since I last do jumping jacks, running and blah blah blah. The last time I ran was like few weeks before end of sch? THat's not exactly long la, but I got no stamina, very difficult to keep up my pace if I stop running for like one week.

OH! quoting xf, "youtube's such a great invention!" HAHAH. I totally agree man. Tho I cant find -sad love story- there... SOBS. but then watch a lil bit of devil beside me. Is it reeeaaallly that nice? so nice that everybody's watching it. Heh.. but i dont really like taiwan dramas, korean drama suits me better! hahaha.... I like to cry cry and cry. destress is it.. LOL

I'm getting tired of my current blogskin. But like not in the mood to change. WHat am I doing? god knows..

I'm yearning for good food, good rest, good playtime, good shopping.......